Sunday, January 23, 2011
Bridge Jumper @ 3:36 AM
I had this dream Friday night/Saturday morning.It's now Sunday morning and I haven't been able to shake it.This dream was very Inception like,meaning I had a dream within a dream.I had dream that I had a dream about jumping off a bridge at night.When I woke up(now in dream 2),I kept thinking all of these diving techniques that would allow someone to jump off a bridge and live.Someone had hired me to come up with these techniques.I could see myself diving off the Brooklyn bridge,it was dark... nighttime.Everything was fuzzy,yet bright.
The dream left such profound effect on me that when I actually awoke,I researched all morning about jumping off bridges.I even watched a documentary called,"The Bridge".It was about people committing suicide by jumping off the Golden gate bridge.It was heart-wrenching and emotionally gripping.I thought about it all day.The combination of the dream,the Documentary,drugs,and disappointment in my mother left me feeling extremely sad, Saturday.I wish I never had that dream,It seems to have triggered a bi-polar episode.I haven't openly cried for awhile but,...yesterday I certainly cried a lot.
I cant stop thinking about those people who jumped.I really wanna go bungee jumping.I wanna get this urge to jump out of my system.Unlike the people in the doc,I dont wanna kill myself.I just wanna know what it feels like.I wanna know hat it feels like to hit terminal velocity,to plunge deep into the dark waters below.One of the people in the doc actually survived.I'm so intrigued by this.How?Why?Could I do the same?I hope these thoughts leave my system fast.
Labels: Bridges, family, sadness, unnerving
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Tuesday,Sept-8-2009 @ 8:47 AM
this dreams involves a lot of wild life.So my mom purchases this big house
in a wooded area.We go to check it out and
there's many animals all over. as we leave,I look over at an open sliding door.I see what I think is a
raccoon,,it's actually a wolf and it starts coming closer.We all
run into a green van(the van we owned in the past).My oldest bro who lives near for
some reason,ends up barely squeezing into the car on time. the dreams shifts to our
Brooklyn apartment which as become infested with mountain lions,the way one would get a infestation of mice.So,I keep getting attacked!(yes,just me).At one point me and my sister are in our room,there are no signs of mountain lions at the moment.We are scared,so i decide that maybe
spreading bleach
around will keep the lions away.So i creep towards the front of the house to
get some bleach.When I reach the front i see a mountain lion digging through a garbage bag,I run back scared as hell.the lion must of seen me because,
next thing i know it's at out room door.I try to hold the door back,but the lion is too strong.it claws me
through the door,I can feel it's oddly thin nails penetrate my scalp(I swear I felt this
IRL).next the dreams pans to me in my room,I think
im in a cast.My mother comes to me to tell me dinner is done,as she comes in a I
am just picking up a book called "How to avoid mountain lion attacks".The book has a picture of a moose
with it's feet mangled,I never get to read it.My alarm goes
off,and I wake up.
Labels: animals, family, fear
The main part of this dream takes place on a corner in
Brooklyn.I think somewhere near my old middle school. Lady gaga and
Alexander Skarsgard are standing on the corner arguing.
Apparently I am Friends with them,and they are dating.In the dreams this makes me sad but I try not to show it.
Askars is sad over the death of a friend,who turns out to be
Korean rapper Crown J.He apparently died
in a plane on plane collision.Everyone,
especially me is in
disbelief.This is another dream that felt real.I could feel sadness in my heart over the death.Death dreams always feel real as of late,due to actual
deaths around me.
Labels: Askars, Lady gaga, planes
I dreamed as was lying on my bed and then everything just started shaking.I said to myself "what are these stupid girls doing?!'(I live in a dorm).I assumed it was the girls in my dorm so I didnt wake up.It turns out a plane was about to crash into the dorm.It was sooo weird,because I could smell burning rubber so vividly.I thought it was real,so scary
Labels: college, fear, planes
This is where I shall record all my dreams,as weird as they are.
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